Sunday, September 19, 2010

I Think I'm Inlove with My Work Too Much

It's almost 3:00 AM and I'm still awake. My mind is still on active mode and though my body is extremely exhausted, I can't seem to get myself to lie in bed and rest my weary mind.

I left the office very late trying to finish up all my pendings and to do's. I just realized that it has been almost 2 months since my last blog and I have not been able to share my thoughts lately.

I have spent most of my time at work and my boss would always tease me to get a life.

Life? Well, most of my life here are spent in the office so I guess I had developed a certain relationship with my work. When I was in the Philippines, I have the same scenario and I usually spend more time with my job than with my partner and parents.

Funny though, it just seems like I'm terribly in love with my job.  You know the feeling when you are in love, you can't sleep, you always want to be with the person you love and you can't live without them.

I just realized now that I can't sleep because I'm thinking about my work, I'm always in the office almost 24 hours a day/7 days a week and I can't seem to stop working even though my body is telling me to stop.

Either I'm in love with job or I'm just plain addicted with work. Truthfully, I love what I'm doing. I like the challenge, the pressure and stress. Trying to figure out whether I can make it or not. Learning from the mistakes, having those palpitating and panick attacks then trying to calm my nerves down. I do get tired though and wish for a peaceful sleep.

Well, my mind is a bit disoriented while writing this blog but I just want to share my thoughts. Anyway, my bed is certainly gaining advantage of tempting my body to sleep on it now. Guess, better rest as I look forward to having another day with my new partner - WORK.

Josh